My 1st Boyfriend... but he lived thousands of mile away!?!

His name is Brandon! We have been dating since April 8th, 2013 but I bet he doesn't remember. His birthday is on May 7th. He turns 17 this year. He is the sweetest, kindest, most considerate, loyal boyfriends you could have. He talks Irish but has a British accent. His voice is deep and his accent is strong but that makes him more attractive. I loved him! I wish others could understand. My friends just said it was a passing thing for me because he was technically my 1st boyfriend.
We first messaged each other when he was just randomly saying hi and I talked to him about a problem I was having with Sebastian. He hinted about liking me but then straight out said 'I love you'.

On April 23rd, 2013 we had been talking about spending the rest of our lives together and pics of ring went to future marriage and then he asked the question. Of course I said yes! I loved him and he accepts everything about me, I think. I hadn't told him about my parents because I don't want him to feel bad since his dad abused him and his mom treated him bad. I didn't want him to suffer. No! I wont allow sadness. I am tired of being the depressed girl in the corner who detaches herself from everyone and everything.


On April 30th, 2013 I Skyped with him for 12 minutes and 23 seconds. I was so happy to see him in real time! Really happy but I saw the inevitable truth that when I get home from school we only have 3 hours together and sometimes less. I want him here with me but that is just a dream for another 5 years. Yes, I planned on dating him for 5 years.
We have had bad past's but I would have to say his childhood is really sad. He was prematurely born so his lungs burst and he was about to die. Also his dad would beat him. It was a sad and cruel thing. He is an amazing person but on May 25th, 2013 I broke up with him because my feelings for him were not the same. First boyfriends are really sad because we talked about spending our life together and we broke up after 2 months.

This is why I will not get attached again!
We decided to get married as soon as possible ( In 5 years)
We are going to Fiji for our honeymoon
We will have 1 boy named Alex and 1 girl named Ashley
We are going to have a golden Labrador

I made myself sad because I knew it was not going to happen but I wanted it to SO badly!!